You know, I could make excuse after excuse why I haven't written on here since March. I think I could probably come up with a hundred or so. But the truth is....I haven't been eating or exercising how I should be. With everything from work to illnesses, I made this excuse in my head that, "Oh, it's okay to have that fast food, just this one time. Tomorrow you will do better!" But the more I thought about it, this one time was always the one time. And the tomorrow that was really suppose to be tomorrow, wasn't really there at all.
I've been blessed to have God place someone in my life that has been through these trials and tribulations. I think she is the most wonderful, beautiful, amazing woman anyone could know. I thought she never had her flaws with weight loss, and always hit the gym when she could. Then one day she admitted she needs to get back on track.. Life is always about getting back on track.
These blogs, especially mine, always sound better when there are butterflies, and flowers, and glitter, and all these wonderful things. But the truth is, life is never full of those things. There are bad things that hop along here and there. So here it is: I may play the I am stuck at 20 pounds, and I don't know why....or even now, I'm stuck at 23 pounds and don't know why. WHY?!?! Why, seriously? It's because I make those excuses that tomorrow will always come. When I was little, my biggest pet peeve was when someone made a promise that they'll do something and never do it. And here I am sitting here, telling myself I'll diet tomorrow, and that tomorrow is never here. I'm breaking the promise to myself.
We get our work schedule about three weeks in advance. So I am sitting here wanting to plan it out. I counted down from July 1st, my goal. OH MY GOSH!! I started with 150+ days and now I am down to 62 days. I cannot believe it. I am still going to try and hit my goal as much as I can. I have to loose 27 pounds in two months. I may not reach it, but that's okay. I will shoot for as much as I can.
I found note cards I had written my workout schedule on. Every day I had at least 2 hours of exercise on it. Does that seem extreme? Yeah, maybe. But not to me. I know I can do it. But I need help from everyone. I need people to be my accountability partner. I need someone to push me as far as I can go. I don't have that at home, and it's really hard to keep going.
So, here I go...gonna write down my schedule. Here goes nothing...!
April 29, 2011
March 10, 2011
113 Days to Go
I am starting to feel better about myself again. As much as I hate, hate, hate to say this. I gained a couple weeks ago. I can come up with excuse after excuse. But it doesn't matter that I was working 12 hours, or that dad has his surgery, or the fact that I let myself go. I feel ashamed that it happened, but I cannot deny it. It happens in and on your journey. Like I said before in my "contract" you must forgive yourself just as Christ forgives us. You must move on.
So that is what I who has lost the weight, and kept it off. I hope one day God will open my eyes and let me see what everyone else sees, espeically Him.
Well, off to bed. BodyStep in the morning, we will see how sore I am tomorrow!! :o)
did.
I gained way more than I wanted, let alone, thought I did. Of course, having the "fat" mind I did, I was like well, so much is due to extra salt, so much is due to the weather, so much is do to this or that. Seriously? All I am doing is making excuses again. I rather not say how much I gained or lost of what I gained, but I will tell you that I only have two pounds to go before I'm back at my regular weight a few weeks ago.
To be completely honest, I don't feel like this "awesome" person everyone says I am. They say I am doing awesome with my weight loss, or that I am this great instructor. Really? Maybe God needs to open my eyes because I just feel like the "old" Jessica I always have been. But then again, I remember talking with Emily about this. She sees herself as this regular, God-fearing, plan-jane woman, yet I see her as this awesome person
So that is what I who has lost the weight, and kept it off. I hope one day God will open my eyes and let me see what everyone else sees, espeically Him.
Well, off to bed. BodyStep in the morning, we will see how sore I am tomorrow!! :o)
did.
I gained way more than I wanted, let alone, thought I did. Of course, having the "fat" mind I did, I was like well, so much is due to extra salt, so much is due to the weather, so much is do to this or that. Seriously? All I am doing is making excuses again. I rather not say how much I gained or lost of what I gained, but I will tell you that I only have two pounds to go before I'm back at my regular weight a few weeks ago.
To be completely honest, I don't feel like this "awesome" person everyone says I am. They say I am doing awesome with my weight loss, or that I am this great instructor. Really? Maybe God needs to open my eyes because I just feel like the "old" Jessica I always have been. But then again, I remember talking with Emily about this. She sees herself as this regular, God-fearing, plan-jane woman, yet I see her as this awesome person
March 09, 2011
114 Days to Go
I got my butt out of bed this morning!! Yay, for me. If you guys know me, you know that I am so not a morning person.
I went to BodyStep. It was okay...I feel like the moves were too difficult for me to understand. For one move it was called the revolving door. You stepped over the board and back, a while turning around in many circles. I guess I was just too worried about falling. And towards the end, she had us to this body dip. She failed to tell the people who only had one step, that we needed more for this one. Oh well. I still burned 525 calories in an hour, not too shabby!
I wish I could have went on my walk today. Stupid rain. Today was pretty much boring, hopefully tomorrow will be alot better :o) Thus because it is ZUMBA night!!
I went to BodyStep. It was okay...I feel like the moves were too difficult for me to understand. For one move it was called the revolving door. You stepped over the board and back, a while turning around in many circles. I guess I was just too worried about falling. And towards the end, she had us to this body dip. She failed to tell the people who only had one step, that we needed more for this one. Oh well. I still burned 525 calories in an hour, not too shabby!
I wish I could have went on my walk today. Stupid rain. Today was pretty much boring, hopefully tomorrow will be alot better :o) Thus because it is ZUMBA night!!
March 08, 2011
115 Days to Go
I got yelled at for not writing this blog anymore. Not really yelled, but yelled at! lol I can come up with excuses after excuses of reasons why I didn't write. I'm tired, I just got off work, I this and I that....excuses, excuses, excuses!! The real reason was that I was lazy, yes I said it.
Anyways, I haven't been eating the best, therefore, I didn't weigh in. I know I should. I promise I will....later this week! :o)
These past couple of days, God has really opened my eyes and showed me how blessed and loved I am. Sunday night, I was blessed with my certification fees being paid for. I still cannot believe it happened! Thanks to all who made this happen: Sanford and Becky, Chris and Cathi, Dennis and Debby, Candy and Bill, Joyce and Mike. There are not enough words in the world to say how thankful I am for this!! It felt really weird to be THAT blessed when I am used to being the person who blesses someone else.
For my class tonight, I did a few more (new) songs. I did one, big, horrible stupid thing! lol I practiced some of the songs in my living room. But I didn't fully practice the whole song. So, needless to say, I am VERY SORE!! I can barely move, I realized I have muscles in areas I didn't know I had them.
But all is good, I think. :o)
So tired, planning on either gym or walk tomorrow. Night all!
P.S.
My whole caloric burn, if you remember, I upped to 3,200. Today I burned 4,300.....and 800 in ZUMBA!! Yay!
Anyways, I haven't been eating the best, therefore, I didn't weigh in. I know I should. I promise I will....later this week! :o)
These past couple of days, God has really opened my eyes and showed me how blessed and loved I am. Sunday night, I was blessed with my certification fees being paid for. I still cannot believe it happened! Thanks to all who made this happen: Sanford and Becky, Chris and Cathi, Dennis and Debby, Candy and Bill, Joyce and Mike. There are not enough words in the world to say how thankful I am for this!! It felt really weird to be THAT blessed when I am used to being the person who blesses someone else.
For my class tonight, I did a few more (new) songs. I did one, big, horrible stupid thing! lol I practiced some of the songs in my living room. But I didn't fully practice the whole song. So, needless to say, I am VERY SORE!! I can barely move, I realized I have muscles in areas I didn't know I had them.
But all is good, I think. :o)
So tired, planning on either gym or walk tomorrow. Night all!
P.S.
My whole caloric burn, if you remember, I upped to 3,200. Today I burned 4,300.....and 800 in ZUMBA!! Yay!
March 04, 2011
119 Days to Go
Wow. Where to start....
I know I haven't wrote in FOREVER! I kinda went off my diet when dad has his surgery. Hospital food, yeah, it not the best.
This blog will be short, maybe not sweet, but at least short. I went back on my diet today, so far, not bad. I forgot I upped my calorie burn to 3200 until I re-read my blog. Yikes, better get cracking on it. If the weather holds out, I'm going for my 4.3 mile walk, and then practice new songs for zumba.
Yes, I did tell you it would be a short blog. :o)
I know I haven't wrote in FOREVER! I kinda went off my diet when dad has his surgery. Hospital food, yeah, it not the best.
This blog will be short, maybe not sweet, but at least short. I went back on my diet today, so far, not bad. I forgot I upped my calorie burn to 3200 until I re-read my blog. Yikes, better get cracking on it. If the weather holds out, I'm going for my 4.3 mile walk, and then practice new songs for zumba.
Yes, I did tell you it would be a short blog. :o)
February 20, 2011
130 Days to Go
I have had a very stressful past couple of days. The last thing I wanted to do was exercise. I find myself wanting to turn to exercise if I am mad lately. That is very strange, but whatever!
Dad is going to be having surgery on Tuesday (prayers are welcomed!!) and I've been having really bad nightmares. Thus, me not wanting to go to sleep, I am really warn down and tired. Today I got on the scale. I'm down two more pounds. Yay!! A total of 20 pounds so far. Not too shabby since January 1st.
The last thing I wanted to do today was go to Zumba class at the gym. I REALLY wanted to take a nap. I knew there was no time for me to take a nap, go to zumba, and go to our fellowship tonight. I felt really good losing the two pounds, but I knew I had to push myself further. It has really hit me these past few days that after the 130's, come the 120's which means I have little than four months left. I don't want to say I'm freaking out, but I'm not calm about it.
I had only one goal this year, and that was July 1st. I "re-updated" it. I get certified for my class on April 16th. I'm really excited about it. So, I decided to put in another goal. I would like to get to a certain weight (which I do not want to mention just yet) But to get there, I need to loose 16 more pounds. So by April 16th, I should be down 36 pounds. And by July 1st, I should be down 50 pounds. I'm really excited. I feel like time is flying by way to fast.
So, I am back at that mind over body. I KNOW I need to go to the gym. My mind says, sleep in. But I upped my calorie burn to 3200 per day. So, my plan is to go to bodystep tomorrow and maybe a little eliptical or treadmill afterwards. I got to keep going. :o)
Dad is going to be having surgery on Tuesday (prayers are welcomed!!) and I've been having really bad nightmares. Thus, me not wanting to go to sleep, I am really warn down and tired. Today I got on the scale. I'm down two more pounds. Yay!! A total of 20 pounds so far. Not too shabby since January 1st.
The last thing I wanted to do today was go to Zumba class at the gym. I REALLY wanted to take a nap. I knew there was no time for me to take a nap, go to zumba, and go to our fellowship tonight. I felt really good losing the two pounds, but I knew I had to push myself further. It has really hit me these past few days that after the 130's, come the 120's which means I have little than four months left. I don't want to say I'm freaking out, but I'm not calm about it.
I had only one goal this year, and that was July 1st. I "re-updated" it. I get certified for my class on April 16th. I'm really excited about it. So, I decided to put in another goal. I would like to get to a certain weight (which I do not want to mention just yet) But to get there, I need to loose 16 more pounds. So by April 16th, I should be down 36 pounds. And by July 1st, I should be down 50 pounds. I'm really excited. I feel like time is flying by way to fast.
So, I am back at that mind over body. I KNOW I need to go to the gym. My mind says, sleep in. But I upped my calorie burn to 3200 per day. So, my plan is to go to bodystep tomorrow and maybe a little eliptical or treadmill afterwards. I got to keep going. :o)
February 18, 2011
132 Days to Go
Plans on going to body attack this morning? Epic fail! I set my alarm last night all excited for it, but I forgot to turn it on! Seriously? Not cool, Jessica, not cool.
Anyways, I decided to do a weigh in. I got on my WiiFit and saw the bar keep going down, not hitting my BMI where I was last week. I knew that every point was six pounds. (Example for those of you who do not understand the Wii: Say your BMI said it was 24.5 and you weighed in at 23.5, you lost a total of six pounds. I just knew this from the facts it gives off.) I was really surprised it was that low. I hit the weight button and I had lost 3.3 pounds. Finally!!
When I was on the steriods, I gained 0.7 pounds and then 1.5 pounds. Last week I lost my 1.5 pounds, so I was only 0.7 pounds from where I was. I made it in the next set of numbers (tenths)!! Yay!! I have lost a total of 18 pounds since the first of the year. Wow!!
I also just measured myself. Being a fat girl, you measure EVERYTHING!! I measure my neck, upper and lower arms, chest, wasit, hips, thighs, calfs, and ankles. Last time I measured and recorded myself was in November 2010. My biggest losses were my chest 3 inches, and my waist 3.5 inches. I lost a total of 12.5 inches off of everything. I was really surprised on losing inches on my lower arms. Hey, whatever, I will take it!!
Since the weather is nice, and the water puddles majorly cleared up, I am going to go for a nice walk later. I cannot wait!! :o)
Anyways, I decided to do a weigh in. I got on my WiiFit and saw the bar keep going down, not hitting my BMI where I was last week. I knew that every point was six pounds. (Example for those of you who do not understand the Wii: Say your BMI said it was 24.5 and you weighed in at 23.5, you lost a total of six pounds. I just knew this from the facts it gives off.) I was really surprised it was that low. I hit the weight button and I had lost 3.3 pounds. Finally!!
When I was on the steriods, I gained 0.7 pounds and then 1.5 pounds. Last week I lost my 1.5 pounds, so I was only 0.7 pounds from where I was. I made it in the next set of numbers (tenths)!! Yay!! I have lost a total of 18 pounds since the first of the year. Wow!!
I also just measured myself. Being a fat girl, you measure EVERYTHING!! I measure my neck, upper and lower arms, chest, wasit, hips, thighs, calfs, and ankles. Last time I measured and recorded myself was in November 2010. My biggest losses were my chest 3 inches, and my waist 3.5 inches. I lost a total of 12.5 inches off of everything. I was really surprised on losing inches on my lower arms. Hey, whatever, I will take it!!
Since the weather is nice, and the water puddles majorly cleared up, I am going to go for a nice walk later. I cannot wait!! :o)
February 17, 2011
133 Days to Go
I woke up this morning, so not wanting to go to Zumba class. I knew I should. I mean, seriously, how am I to lose weight when I don't put in the extra effort to exercise? I went, had a good time. Afterwards, I was proud of myself for going. There is something about working out in the morning that makes you eat healthier. I don't know if it is a mind thing, or what, but it's awesome.
I planned on going on my 4.3 mile walk around my housing edition. That fell through. As I drove home, I saw these BIG water puddles. How was I going to get a good walking workout in, when I had to dodge the water puddles? So I didn't go on my walk. I stayed busy cleaning today though.
Zumba class was awesome tonight. I had 43 people, and many people who were new! I know this is short blog, but I am tired. I am going to get up early, very early, and workout with Cathi. I'm trying body attack. We will see if I can work tomorrow or not lol
Night All!!
Weigh in tomorrow....hope all is okay...
I planned on going on my 4.3 mile walk around my housing edition. That fell through. As I drove home, I saw these BIG water puddles. How was I going to get a good walking workout in, when I had to dodge the water puddles? So I didn't go on my walk. I stayed busy cleaning today though.
Zumba class was awesome tonight. I had 43 people, and many people who were new! I know this is short blog, but I am tired. I am going to get up early, very early, and workout with Cathi. I'm trying body attack. We will see if I can work tomorrow or not lol
Night All!!
Weigh in tomorrow....hope all is okay...
February 15, 2011
136 Days to Go and 135 Days to Go
Two days combined into one, just because I was hurting bad last night. All I wanted to do was go to bed.
Yesterday was okay. Nothing really to say. Work seemed to drag on all night.
Today I wanted to get up and do STEP at the gym. I woke up, groggy, and in pain still from the fall the night before. I know when my hip starts hurting, I don't need to push it any more than what I think I can do. I don't need to injur it worse than what it is now. So I got up, took some ibuprofen and hoped it would go away. Did some running around. Realized I forgot to put my bodybugg on. Crap. Oh well, there is always tomorrow.
I knew some people said they were going to be coming to my zumba class tonight. I knew with my hip I should take it slow, so I was thinking about telling people at the beginning of class that I was going to take it at a lower level. But I told myself if this one person (and yes she does read this, and yes it is you, Emily) would come that I have to do it like normal. Partly because I wanted to show her "who I was made of" and also I wanted to get her to workout hard.
She came. It was on. I pushed harder than I ever did, and I thank her for that. I know I didn't have my bodybugg on, but she has a similar version and I think she said 640 calories? That's pretty good!! :o) We had a good conversation after class. But it still makes me wonder about my "fat mind."
I know that no matter how much I lose I should be proud of myself. I mean, afterall, God is. Why wouldn't I be? I watched an episode of Say Yes to the Dress and this girl lost over 150 pounds. But yet as she tried on all those pretty dresses, she still felt fat. To me, she looked beautiful, no roll hanging over the edges, smooth skin, what else could be wrong? But in her mind, she was still fat. I've been fat FOREVER and I am scared my mind will still be "fat." But I am not going to let it stop me. Maybe I will never have that. Maybe God will let that go from me? Why hold back, when I really don't know yet??
Yesterday was okay. Nothing really to say. Work seemed to drag on all night.
Today I wanted to get up and do STEP at the gym. I woke up, groggy, and in pain still from the fall the night before. I know when my hip starts hurting, I don't need to push it any more than what I think I can do. I don't need to injur it worse than what it is now. So I got up, took some ibuprofen and hoped it would go away. Did some running around. Realized I forgot to put my bodybugg on. Crap. Oh well, there is always tomorrow.
I knew some people said they were going to be coming to my zumba class tonight. I knew with my hip I should take it slow, so I was thinking about telling people at the beginning of class that I was going to take it at a lower level. But I told myself if this one person (and yes she does read this, and yes it is you, Emily) would come that I have to do it like normal. Partly because I wanted to show her "who I was made of" and also I wanted to get her to workout hard.
She came. It was on. I pushed harder than I ever did, and I thank her for that. I know I didn't have my bodybugg on, but she has a similar version and I think she said 640 calories? That's pretty good!! :o) We had a good conversation after class. But it still makes me wonder about my "fat mind."
I know that no matter how much I lose I should be proud of myself. I mean, afterall, God is. Why wouldn't I be? I watched an episode of Say Yes to the Dress and this girl lost over 150 pounds. But yet as she tried on all those pretty dresses, she still felt fat. To me, she looked beautiful, no roll hanging over the edges, smooth skin, what else could be wrong? But in her mind, she was still fat. I've been fat FOREVER and I am scared my mind will still be "fat." But I am not going to let it stop me. Maybe I will never have that. Maybe God will let that go from me? Why hold back, when I really don't know yet??
February 13, 2011
137 Days to Go
I'm glad today is over. It wasn't a bad day at work, nor was it freezing cold out. I have really slacked on getting my diet on track. I hate the word "diet" instead I rather look at it as "cutting back because you do not need all that crap." The past few days at work while on break, I so wanted the new cookie from Subway. It is raspberry cheesecake, or something like that. It is sooo good. But always in the back of my mind, I think of how many calories there are. 220 for one cookie, yikes!
For some who know me, you knew I suffered from an eating disorder in 8th grade. Long story short, I ate a mare 400 calories a day. Did I lose weigh fast? Yes. Did I feel good about myself at the moment? Yes. Was it the right thing to do? No. Did it affect me later in life from it? Yes. I try not to count calories anymore. But that couple months in 8th grade haunt me.
I am scared, I will admit it. I am scared of not eating and hurting my body even more. Worse of all, I am scared of failing. I've failed over and over again. More times than anyone will ever know; afterall I started dieting in the 3rd grade. I always say enough is enough, but when is it really?
This week I am off for a couple of days. I plan on heading to the gym and "get my fitness on." I seriously cannot wait for spring to get here. I have our housing edition marked out a path of 4.3 miles in which I walk. I take my time, but I absolutely love it, and it surely doesn't feel like more than a mile or so.
I was talking with Anita, a woman at work, about how this change is possible. She is the one who believes in me the most and knows I can do this. She also said I would be looking like Jillian in no time. :o) Of course I have work ahead of me, but I know I can do it. So here is my inspiration today:
For some who know me, you knew I suffered from an eating disorder in 8th grade. Long story short, I ate a mare 400 calories a day. Did I lose weigh fast? Yes. Did I feel good about myself at the moment? Yes. Was it the right thing to do? No. Did it affect me later in life from it? Yes. I try not to count calories anymore. But that couple months in 8th grade haunt me.
I am scared, I will admit it. I am scared of not eating and hurting my body even more. Worse of all, I am scared of failing. I've failed over and over again. More times than anyone will ever know; afterall I started dieting in the 3rd grade. I always say enough is enough, but when is it really?
This week I am off for a couple of days. I plan on heading to the gym and "get my fitness on." I seriously cannot wait for spring to get here. I have our housing edition marked out a path of 4.3 miles in which I walk. I take my time, but I absolutely love it, and it surely doesn't feel like more than a mile or so.
I was talking with Anita, a woman at work, about how this change is possible. She is the one who believes in me the most and knows I can do this. She also said I would be looking like Jillian in no time. :o) Of course I have work ahead of me, but I know I can do it. So here is my inspiration today:
February 12, 2011
138 Days to Go
Somebody noticed my weight loss today!! I know people say stuff to other people, but it feels good someone coming up to me and asking. I had someone (a while ago) ask me if I would be offended by one if they asked if I lost weight. Why would I be?? I would be offended if they came up to me and asked if I gained weight. But definally not loosing weight.
I decided to put up pictures of before and after. I was going to wait until 30 pounds lost, but I lost an inch off my hips and four off my waist, so I figured, hey why not put them up now.
Here's the before:
And here is the after:
I tried getting them as close together from the angle, but it didn't quit work. Next picture will be at 30 pounds lost!!
I decided to put up pictures of before and after. I was going to wait until 30 pounds lost, but I lost an inch off my hips and four off my waist, so I figured, hey why not put them up now.
Here's the before:
And here is the after:
I tried getting them as close together from the angle, but it didn't quit work. Next picture will be at 30 pounds lost!!
139 Days to Go
I admit it, I acted like a child today. But what can I say...?
A couple weeks ago one of my coworkers told me she was selling girl scout cookies. I wasn't going to buy any, but she was like well what if you seperate them into their serving sizes and freeze them. That way, when you want one, you can pull out a package and eat just the serving size. Okay, that sounded good, so I ordered two of my favorite: Tagalongs. I recieved them on Monday. Wednesday night I told my dad he could have the unopened box I had, because I didn't want to tempt myself. Afterall, I ate half the box between Monday and Tuesday.
Of course, he agreed. This morning I woke up and thought I would pack my lunch ahead of time. I have cookies!! I grabbed out the ziplock bag and went to go get my cookies. They are gone!! He was like, "Well, I thought you said I could have some." Yes, the UNOPENED BOX!! He was like I'm sorry you can have your other box. At that point, I didn't want it, what's the point? He already ate MY box I told him NOT to eat.
If I could of, I would have thrown myself down on the floor, kicking and screaming because he ate MY cookies! I was mad, boy, was I mad. Then I thought about it. And yes, it is NOW funny, but at the time I reacted to how I normally would have. "That's my food, and my food only," type of attitude. I didn't, and don't, need those cookies, I just want them. My stomach took over my heart and mind.
Now, I cannot wait for those stupid cookies to be gone, I knew I should have never bought them in the first place. Oh well, I know for next time not to order them.
A couple weeks ago one of my coworkers told me she was selling girl scout cookies. I wasn't going to buy any, but she was like well what if you seperate them into their serving sizes and freeze them. That way, when you want one, you can pull out a package and eat just the serving size. Okay, that sounded good, so I ordered two of my favorite: Tagalongs. I recieved them on Monday. Wednesday night I told my dad he could have the unopened box I had, because I didn't want to tempt myself. Afterall, I ate half the box between Monday and Tuesday.
Of course, he agreed. This morning I woke up and thought I would pack my lunch ahead of time. I have cookies!! I grabbed out the ziplock bag and went to go get my cookies. They are gone!! He was like, "Well, I thought you said I could have some." Yes, the UNOPENED BOX!! He was like I'm sorry you can have your other box. At that point, I didn't want it, what's the point? He already ate MY box I told him NOT to eat.
If I could of, I would have thrown myself down on the floor, kicking and screaming because he ate MY cookies! I was mad, boy, was I mad. Then I thought about it. And yes, it is NOW funny, but at the time I reacted to how I normally would have. "That's my food, and my food only," type of attitude. I didn't, and don't, need those cookies, I just want them. My stomach took over my heart and mind.
Now, I cannot wait for those stupid cookies to be gone, I knew I should have never bought them in the first place. Oh well, I know for next time not to order them.
February 10, 2011
140 Days to Go
I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. Let me explain.
The ROCK -- My body telling me no more, please wait.
The HARD PLACE -- My mind telling me I can.
I am sore, yet still, two days later. I know it pays to "know" that I am working out well, but then I get stuck. I seriously want to go to the gym tomorrow, yet my body is telling me no. Even Dad says I should take a few days off. But I really like working out. Yes, I said it, and I did not studdar, I LIKE WORKING OUT! But, I seriously feel like an old lady. I can barely get up when I squat or kneel. Laughing still hurts. Ha Ha Well, at least I can "laugh" on here and it not hurt.
But the hard place, I KNOW I should go work out. The "Jillian" in my is still screaming at me telling me to push through everything, give it a chance, and then decide.
I know one thing right now, it's time for BED. :0)
The ROCK -- My body telling me no more, please wait.
The HARD PLACE -- My mind telling me I can.
I am sore, yet still, two days later. I know it pays to "know" that I am working out well, but then I get stuck. I seriously want to go to the gym tomorrow, yet my body is telling me no. Even Dad says I should take a few days off. But I really like working out. Yes, I said it, and I did not studdar, I LIKE WORKING OUT! But, I seriously feel like an old lady. I can barely get up when I squat or kneel. Laughing still hurts. Ha Ha Well, at least I can "laugh" on here and it not hurt.
But the hard place, I KNOW I should go work out. The "Jillian" in my is still screaming at me telling me to push through everything, give it a chance, and then decide.
I know one thing right now, it's time for BED. :0)
February 09, 2011
141 Days to Go
First of all, I'm sorry. I got lost on my days when I didn't write. So, yesterdays blog should have been 142, not 143.
Today, I got up, unfortunitally. I set my alarm early so I could workout. Umm, yeah. I heard my alarm go off, and I immediatly thought of yesterday's dream with Jillian. "Just push yourself." I went to roll over, and that is when it happened. My body would....not....move! My thighs hurt, my sides hurt, my legs hurt. Everywhere hurt.
Many might think I was acting like a baby, but seriously I could not eat, walk, fart, burp, breath, or even cough without some muscle hurting. I know I did three hours of zumba, but I honestly thought I knew what I was doing and my body was use to it. I was wrong.
I did try and workout this morning. I got on Facebook, of course, and was thinking I could skip this one workout and start tomorrow. That is when I saw a post from Emily. Emily has been there for me for thick and thin, keeping me going. She posted how she hates morning workouts but yet she got in a workout. If she can do it, why can't I? She said she worked out for 42 minues, I believe. So I set that as my goal. I started at 10:15am. Just go to eleven, Jessica!!
Every move I did on my Wii, I kept looking at the clock. I knew I wasn't giving it my all. My body would simply not let me. I did workout though, for those LONG forty-two minutes!! I didn't eat exactly the best today, but I didn't eat the worse choices. I need to forget my past and keep going.
So as I write this blog, I'm watching my new favorite show, "I Used To Be Fat." This girls dad keeps talking about all this commintment she has to put in. If I think myself into putting my diet in full speed, then I can accomplish this...no matter if I've failed before.
Today, I got up, unfortunitally. I set my alarm early so I could workout. Umm, yeah. I heard my alarm go off, and I immediatly thought of yesterday's dream with Jillian. "Just push yourself." I went to roll over, and that is when it happened. My body would....not....move! My thighs hurt, my sides hurt, my legs hurt. Everywhere hurt.
Many might think I was acting like a baby, but seriously I could not eat, walk, fart, burp, breath, or even cough without some muscle hurting. I know I did three hours of zumba, but I honestly thought I knew what I was doing and my body was use to it. I was wrong.
I did try and workout this morning. I got on Facebook, of course, and was thinking I could skip this one workout and start tomorrow. That is when I saw a post from Emily. Emily has been there for me for thick and thin, keeping me going. She posted how she hates morning workouts but yet she got in a workout. If she can do it, why can't I? She said she worked out for 42 minues, I believe. So I set that as my goal. I started at 10:15am. Just go to eleven, Jessica!!
Every move I did on my Wii, I kept looking at the clock. I knew I wasn't giving it my all. My body would simply not let me. I did workout though, for those LONG forty-two minutes!! I didn't eat exactly the best today, but I didn't eat the worse choices. I need to forget my past and keep going.
So as I write this blog, I'm watching my new favorite show, "I Used To Be Fat." This girls dad keeps talking about all this commintment she has to put in. If I think myself into putting my diet in full speed, then I can accomplish this...no matter if I've failed before.
February 08, 2011
143 Days to Go
Last night before going to bed, I told myself I NEEDED to go to the gym for Zumba. Usually when I "set" myself up, I don't go. Even after setting fifty million alarms on my phone. But today was different.
Sometime in the middle of the night I had a dream. Not sure if it was a God-given dream, but it really, really helped me.
For those of you who knows me, my favorite person ever is Jillian Michaels. I love everything about her. The way she trains, her personal past, and the list will go on and on. And I did try out for Biggest Loser show, and obviously did not get accepted. (Now I know why, years later, because I wouldn't have my awesome zumba class). There is only one person who could tell me to fun five hundred miles, and I would do it, as long as it was Jillian.
Anyways, long story short. At the beginning of my dream, I was just the way I was now. Fat. My dad and I were running, or should have been running, up this "track" they set in this city we were visiting. It was very hilly and there was NO flat land. I stayed by my dad because I didn't want to leave him alone.
Thats when Jillian came walking beside me. She kept telling me, that no matter what my situation is, always strive for the best I could. I can always push myself, and I should always try. That is when, in my dream, I started running, and running, and running. I felt good. Except, leaving my dad behind.
All in all, this dream hit hard. I love my parents to death, I really do. I realized my biggest fear for losing weight was not having my parents lose weight as well. I know I cannot make them do it, they have to do it for themselves. Would they love me less? I doubt it. Would they hold a grudge against me? I doubt it. I took my "strive for anything" attitude and kept it close to my heart.
So the next morning, I got up, and stayed up. I knew if I would have layed back down, I wouldn't get back up. I slowly got dressed. I kept thinking about the dream I had. And how real it felt. Amazing how one dream can change your attitude. I drove to the gym, did zumba. Then I came home, practiced my zumba for tonight. And tonight I did my zumba. I just kept going and going and going. Just like Jillian said in my dream. I guess you could say I'm shooting for the stars.
I came home from my class and uploaded my bodybugg. Amazing. I burned over 4,400 calories, exercised over three hours today, walked over 22,000 steps. I can do this. So it's off for another night, and onto another. Afterall, my goal is to lose 50 pounds right now. Okay, good. I have 15 pounds down, leaving 35. It takes the first step to start a journey, and I just took my second step. Goodnight everyone.
Sometime in the middle of the night I had a dream. Not sure if it was a God-given dream, but it really, really helped me.
For those of you who knows me, my favorite person ever is Jillian Michaels. I love everything about her. The way she trains, her personal past, and the list will go on and on. And I did try out for Biggest Loser show, and obviously did not get accepted. (Now I know why, years later, because I wouldn't have my awesome zumba class). There is only one person who could tell me to fun five hundred miles, and I would do it, as long as it was Jillian.
Anyways, long story short. At the beginning of my dream, I was just the way I was now. Fat. My dad and I were running, or should have been running, up this "track" they set in this city we were visiting. It was very hilly and there was NO flat land. I stayed by my dad because I didn't want to leave him alone.
Thats when Jillian came walking beside me. She kept telling me, that no matter what my situation is, always strive for the best I could. I can always push myself, and I should always try. That is when, in my dream, I started running, and running, and running. I felt good. Except, leaving my dad behind.
All in all, this dream hit hard. I love my parents to death, I really do. I realized my biggest fear for losing weight was not having my parents lose weight as well. I know I cannot make them do it, they have to do it for themselves. Would they love me less? I doubt it. Would they hold a grudge against me? I doubt it. I took my "strive for anything" attitude and kept it close to my heart.
So the next morning, I got up, and stayed up. I knew if I would have layed back down, I wouldn't get back up. I slowly got dressed. I kept thinking about the dream I had. And how real it felt. Amazing how one dream can change your attitude. I drove to the gym, did zumba. Then I came home, practiced my zumba for tonight. And tonight I did my zumba. I just kept going and going and going. Just like Jillian said in my dream. I guess you could say I'm shooting for the stars.
I came home from my class and uploaded my bodybugg. Amazing. I burned over 4,400 calories, exercised over three hours today, walked over 22,000 steps. I can do this. So it's off for another night, and onto another. Afterall, my goal is to lose 50 pounds right now. Okay, good. I have 15 pounds down, leaving 35. It takes the first step to start a journey, and I just took my second step. Goodnight everyone.
February 07, 2011
145 Days to Go and 144 Days to Go
Ugh. I HATE being sick. I feel no power to get up, let alone exercise.
Let's start with Day 145. That was my birthday. The big TWO, ONE! I told myself I wouldn't get a drink because of all the calories, but while at Roadhouse, I figured why not? I probably wouldn't have a "first time" chance again. I ordered a margarita. I figured there were probably 300 to 500 calories in it. Well, that's okay because I barely drank it!! So I definally knew I didn't even get to my 300 calories! Haha
I did splurge on my birthday. Not as much as I thought I would though. I only had one roll, which is completely amazing because I could literally eat ten baskets of those delicious rolls!! And you must not forget the lovely butter to put on it. I did do some research though before I went. I looked at how many calories were in the green beans and salad that I usually get. Not too shaby afterwards. I was completely lazy yesterday afternoon. I took a nap. :o) Oh yes, it felt good, especially being a birthday nap.
Onto Day 144. I got up fairly early. I did start the day out well on my diet, but I staggered off. And I know it's because I've slacked on reading Made to Crave. When I started reading the book the first time, I remember basically skimming through the pages, one after another, just to find the "simple fix." I thought I couldn't get enough reading in, and wanted to keep reading and reading. I stopped half-way through the book.
I need to re-read this book. I need to learn the know-how to live my life to the fullest, same with the Bible. I know I do not want to go back to where I was. I know I gained 0.7 pounds, but I lost 16 in January. I want to keep going. And whoever is praying out there for me, thanks, because it has really helped me. And please continue to do so.
Well, I'm off to bed for a goodnight's rest. I am going to Newtone tomorrow for a zumba class, and then come home and practice for my zumba later tomorrow night!! Yay for zumba!! Ha.
Let's start with Day 145. That was my birthday. The big TWO, ONE! I told myself I wouldn't get a drink because of all the calories, but while at Roadhouse, I figured why not? I probably wouldn't have a "first time" chance again. I ordered a margarita. I figured there were probably 300 to 500 calories in it. Well, that's okay because I barely drank it!! So I definally knew I didn't even get to my 300 calories! Haha
I did splurge on my birthday. Not as much as I thought I would though. I only had one roll, which is completely amazing because I could literally eat ten baskets of those delicious rolls!! And you must not forget the lovely butter to put on it. I did do some research though before I went. I looked at how many calories were in the green beans and salad that I usually get. Not too shaby afterwards. I was completely lazy yesterday afternoon. I took a nap. :o) Oh yes, it felt good, especially being a birthday nap.
Onto Day 144. I got up fairly early. I did start the day out well on my diet, but I staggered off. And I know it's because I've slacked on reading Made to Crave. When I started reading the book the first time, I remember basically skimming through the pages, one after another, just to find the "simple fix." I thought I couldn't get enough reading in, and wanted to keep reading and reading. I stopped half-way through the book.
I need to re-read this book. I need to learn the know-how to live my life to the fullest, same with the Bible. I know I do not want to go back to where I was. I know I gained 0.7 pounds, but I lost 16 in January. I want to keep going. And whoever is praying out there for me, thanks, because it has really helped me. And please continue to do so.
Well, I'm off to bed for a goodnight's rest. I am going to Newtone tomorrow for a zumba class, and then come home and practice for my zumba later tomorrow night!! Yay for zumba!! Ha.
February 04, 2011
146 Days to Go
I have got to tell you this past week has been HORRIBLE!!! I got sick, and of course, right before my birthday. The doctor put me on steriods. Ugh, those stupid steriods. All they make me want to do is eat, eat, eat. I haven't weighed myself in, and I not sure if I want to lol
Well, why not.... I will be back....
Okay, so as I was weighing in, I kept thinking oh I probably gained 3 to 5 pounds. I just feel that way. I did gain, but only 0.7 pounds. I think I can handle that. I just REALLY need to get on with it this next week. I know I am going out for my birthday. I just need to plan ahead and work very hard for it.
I know I've been slacking on my blog, and slacking on my diet. So any prayers or encouragement would be great right now!! I typically only last two weeks on a diet, and I've made it a month, but I want to keep going!!
Thanks everyone!
Well, why not.... I will be back....
Okay, so as I was weighing in, I kept thinking oh I probably gained 3 to 5 pounds. I just feel that way. I did gain, but only 0.7 pounds. I think I can handle that. I just REALLY need to get on with it this next week. I know I am going out for my birthday. I just need to plan ahead and work very hard for it.
I know I've been slacking on my blog, and slacking on my diet. So any prayers or encouragement would be great right now!! I typically only last two weeks on a diet, and I've made it a month, but I want to keep going!!
Thanks everyone!
January 28, 2011
155 Days to Go, 154 Days to Go, and 153 Days to Go
Yes, yes I know!! I've slacked the past two days on posting. Ugh I know it!! But that doesn't mean I slacked on my dieting.
Lets see, day 155....That was Wednesday. I kept thinking back to yesterday..... (roughly what I wrote from the previous blog)....I had to work for a while and then go to class. I was excited about having about twenty people, a few more than my class before. Mom and I went and set up for everything, got my mic, turned on the music. About 6:20pm I happen to be talking to someone where I could see the stairs outside the door. I saw heads coming up like crazy. People in groups of four, five, three, four again. Oh my, I kept thinking! At the end of the class, we had 35 people. I was shocked beyond believe. God is so great!!
Lets see, day 154....That was yesterday. I had tons of running around to do. Which in started with taking Mom to urgent care. I felt like all I was doing was running around. Came home just in time for Zumba. Got ready, and headed out. I did my usual run before class, by putting up the signs. I was excited to have a big class. There is something about having a big class that pumps me up! Class started and we had 35 people again. I was thinking, no to shabby. We then had more people walk in. We ended the class with 43 people!! Yay!!
Day 153. That's today. I decided to measure my waist since everyone is saying I'm getting really small there. The last time I measure and recorded it was in November last year. I took the tape measure and wrapped it around. Looked at it and thought there was no way it was right. Redid it, and sure enough four inches off my waist!!
I thought I knew exactly who I was, but God is proven me wrong. If you would have asked me a year ago about doing this Zumba class, I would have thought, who do you think I am, I will never get in front of people. Slowly, I am learning little pieces of who I am. But overall I am learning to be proud of me and who I am. So, although I would love to be ALOT less than what I am now, I will take 15 pounds since January 1st and 4 inches since November. I'll take it, I really will!!
Now, off to practice new songs for Zumba!! :o)
Lets see, day 155....That was Wednesday. I kept thinking back to yesterday..... (roughly what I wrote from the previous blog)....I had to work for a while and then go to class. I was excited about having about twenty people, a few more than my class before. Mom and I went and set up for everything, got my mic, turned on the music. About 6:20pm I happen to be talking to someone where I could see the stairs outside the door. I saw heads coming up like crazy. People in groups of four, five, three, four again. Oh my, I kept thinking! At the end of the class, we had 35 people. I was shocked beyond believe. God is so great!!
Lets see, day 154....That was yesterday. I had tons of running around to do. Which in started with taking Mom to urgent care. I felt like all I was doing was running around. Came home just in time for Zumba. Got ready, and headed out. I did my usual run before class, by putting up the signs. I was excited to have a big class. There is something about having a big class that pumps me up! Class started and we had 35 people again. I was thinking, no to shabby. We then had more people walk in. We ended the class with 43 people!! Yay!!
Day 153. That's today. I decided to measure my waist since everyone is saying I'm getting really small there. The last time I measure and recorded it was in November last year. I took the tape measure and wrapped it around. Looked at it and thought there was no way it was right. Redid it, and sure enough four inches off my waist!!
I thought I knew exactly who I was, but God is proven me wrong. If you would have asked me a year ago about doing this Zumba class, I would have thought, who do you think I am, I will never get in front of people. Slowly, I am learning little pieces of who I am. But overall I am learning to be proud of me and who I am. So, although I would love to be ALOT less than what I am now, I will take 15 pounds since January 1st and 4 inches since November. I'll take it, I really will!!
Now, off to practice new songs for Zumba!! :o)
January 25, 2011
156 Days to Go
I planned on working out this morning at the gym. I got up earlier, well earlier than I usually get up, and ate breakfast. I got thinking and I seriously did not want to go out in the cold. So, with my many fifty-million DVD's and Wii games, I pulled some out and worked out that way. Halfway through, I just remember I had my Zumba class. Oh well, double workout. Haha.
Today went pretty well. And the whole thing about praying before you choose something to eat is really working. I don't have many cravings and I feel AWESOME!!
Tonight was my class. I went in knowing I would be down a few people due to work, illness, etc. That's life, and I know I will never have the same amount of people over and over again. I just know that. So I got set up, moving things, and putting up signs. By judging my class before hand, I knew people always came in late. I was really surprised when I had people showing up at a quarter after. Wow, I thought.
As time went on, and I mean minutes, not hours, I saw groups, YES GROUPS, of people walking upstairs. I thought they may have been lost and wounded up by my room. Then I see them walk in. Oh my. And then another group of people. Oh, oh my. I was in complete overwhelm mode when class started. I had twenty-six people when I started. Then, people kept coming in!! I ended up with thirty-five, yes 35, people tonight!! And only 12 were from the church. Praise God. I had some new ones that said they would love to come back. I even had one lady say she was pumping gas by Payless and saw the sign outside and decided to join. Wow, amazing, thank you Jesus!!
I am safe to say that I have VERY happy tonight. :o) God has always been good, and always will.
Today went pretty well. And the whole thing about praying before you choose something to eat is really working. I don't have many cravings and I feel AWESOME!!
Tonight was my class. I went in knowing I would be down a few people due to work, illness, etc. That's life, and I know I will never have the same amount of people over and over again. I just know that. So I got set up, moving things, and putting up signs. By judging my class before hand, I knew people always came in late. I was really surprised when I had people showing up at a quarter after. Wow, I thought.
As time went on, and I mean minutes, not hours, I saw groups, YES GROUPS, of people walking upstairs. I thought they may have been lost and wounded up by my room. Then I see them walk in. Oh my. And then another group of people. Oh, oh my. I was in complete overwhelm mode when class started. I had twenty-six people when I started. Then, people kept coming in!! I ended up with thirty-five, yes 35, people tonight!! And only 12 were from the church. Praise God. I had some new ones that said they would love to come back. I even had one lady say she was pumping gas by Payless and saw the sign outside and decided to join. Wow, amazing, thank you Jesus!!
I am safe to say that I have VERY happy tonight. :o) God has always been good, and always will.
January 24, 2011
157 Days to Go
I try to typically weigh in every week. Today I got out my Wii and set it up for the weigh-in. I had my dad weigh in first. He gained 1.1 pounds. I thought, oh great, what will it be for me. I thought back to what I ate this past week. We had tacos one night, and I instantly thought about all the sodium that was in the seasoning. Oh yikes!! Then I thought about all those workouts I said I was going to do, and didn't. I actually thought I would gain.
BUT WRONG!!
I actually lost 6.4 pounds. I stood there and started crying. I haven't weighed that amount since December of 2009. I have always tried to get back down there, and always gained it back because I gave up on myself. I kept thanking God for pulling me through. So it's a total of 14 pounds since the beginning of the year. I think I can handle that!!
BUT WRONG!!
I actually lost 6.4 pounds. I stood there and started crying. I haven't weighed that amount since December of 2009. I have always tried to get back down there, and always gained it back because I gave up on myself. I kept thanking God for pulling me through. So it's a total of 14 pounds since the beginning of the year. I think I can handle that!!
158 Days to Go
I woke up this morning feeling like 'ugh'. Ugh like what have I got myself into, ugh why do I feel this way, and ugh I already hate this now. It wasn't as if I were dreading the whole journey, I just didn't feel like myself. And if you know me, I do not like that. So, right before church, I kept praying, "Lord, let me came back to normal."
I have been reading bits and pieces of this book entitled, "Made to Crave." It is about a woman who has been trying to loose weight. When I started reading it, this woman started out at 167 pounds or so. And of course, I'm like what the heck, I would LOVE to weigh that much! But as I read on, it was more than beyond the words written on that page. She basically said that we should crave God more than we should crave food. And this is so true. In one sentence she wrote, "Do you love food more than you love God?"
And once you think about it, many of us do. Who or what do we turn to when we are depressed, upset, stressed??? Most of the time it's food because it doesn't turn it's back on us, doesn't talk back, and sure enough doesn't tell us what we don't want to hear. This woman also made it appoint to pray before she ate, no matter what it was--even throughout the day.
On my other blog, I said something like why not include God into this process? I always had, but I only prayed once a day about it, typically with my devotions. And my prayer always was me, me, me. So I took her advice and "rolled" with it. In the morning, I pray to God and ask him what I should have for breakfast. An idea pops into my head. I do the same thing over and over again with every meal and every snack. I even pray when I am craving something I know I shouldn't.
For example, there is a new commercial for Pizza Hut about the breadsticks with pepperoni. They look oh-so yummy in that commercial, also knowing they are filled with TONS of calories, fat, carbs, and who else knows what. Of course, after seeing this I craved that pizza. I knew my mom craved it too, but just that one little slip up can lead me back to the road I was on. And I do not want that. I mean afterall I have been trying to loose weight since 8th grade, and look where I am right now. Still fat as I was before.
For supper last night, I decided to have chef salads. Of course it wasn't going to be as good as that cheesy, crispy pizza. But as I was making the salads, I prayed. I prayed and said, "God thank you for not letting me give into the pizza. This salad is made from items you created and I will eat it and enjoy it." Of course it did not taste the same. But it sure saved me tons of calories.
Overall what I am saying, is to think about what you put into your mouth. Let your body tell you what you need, not your heart or mind. Sometimes when you crave something you will literally make your mind think about nothing else. And you keep thinking about it until you get it. For me, enough was enough, and I need to eat things that I am Made to Crave, items He made that are good for me.
I have been reading bits and pieces of this book entitled, "Made to Crave." It is about a woman who has been trying to loose weight. When I started reading it, this woman started out at 167 pounds or so. And of course, I'm like what the heck, I would LOVE to weigh that much! But as I read on, it was more than beyond the words written on that page. She basically said that we should crave God more than we should crave food. And this is so true. In one sentence she wrote, "Do you love food more than you love God?"
And once you think about it, many of us do. Who or what do we turn to when we are depressed, upset, stressed??? Most of the time it's food because it doesn't turn it's back on us, doesn't talk back, and sure enough doesn't tell us what we don't want to hear. This woman also made it appoint to pray before she ate, no matter what it was--even throughout the day.
On my other blog, I said something like why not include God into this process? I always had, but I only prayed once a day about it, typically with my devotions. And my prayer always was me, me, me. So I took her advice and "rolled" with it. In the morning, I pray to God and ask him what I should have for breakfast. An idea pops into my head. I do the same thing over and over again with every meal and every snack. I even pray when I am craving something I know I shouldn't.
For example, there is a new commercial for Pizza Hut about the breadsticks with pepperoni. They look oh-so yummy in that commercial, also knowing they are filled with TONS of calories, fat, carbs, and who else knows what. Of course, after seeing this I craved that pizza. I knew my mom craved it too, but just that one little slip up can lead me back to the road I was on. And I do not want that. I mean afterall I have been trying to loose weight since 8th grade, and look where I am right now. Still fat as I was before.
For supper last night, I decided to have chef salads. Of course it wasn't going to be as good as that cheesy, crispy pizza. But as I was making the salads, I prayed. I prayed and said, "God thank you for not letting me give into the pizza. This salad is made from items you created and I will eat it and enjoy it." Of course it did not taste the same. But it sure saved me tons of calories.
Overall what I am saying, is to think about what you put into your mouth. Let your body tell you what you need, not your heart or mind. Sometimes when you crave something you will literally make your mind think about nothing else. And you keep thinking about it until you get it. For me, enough was enough, and I need to eat things that I am Made to Crave, items He made that are good for me.
January 22, 2011
159 Days to Go
Last night Mom and I went to the gym. I know I need to learn to go by myself and push myself. My gym buddy moved a month or so ago, and I haven't been back until last night. I started with the eliptical. I LOVE THE ELIPTICAL!! I wish I could buy one for home, that's how much I love it! Ha. Anyways, a little while after getting on the treadmill, my hip started hurting. For most of you, you didn't know we got into a car accident back in August. The guy totalled our car, and leaving me with cortisone shots in my hip. Any cold weather, repeatable movements, or not moving will make my hip act up.
I am really disappointed in myself that I didn't get in the workout I wanted. But like I said in the contract, the past is in the past, and I must move forward. And so I did.
I didn't get a work out in today, and yet I'm disappointed. I need to learn to quit hitting the snooze button when I try to get up early. What can I say, I love staying up late, yet sleeping in. So my goal for tomorrow is to get up early before church and get a mini workout in. I need to get a workout in. Well I'm off to bed, goodnight all.
I am really disappointed in myself that I didn't get in the workout I wanted. But like I said in the contract, the past is in the past, and I must move forward. And so I did.
I didn't get a work out in today, and yet I'm disappointed. I need to learn to quit hitting the snooze button when I try to get up early. What can I say, I love staying up late, yet sleeping in. So my goal for tomorrow is to get up early before church and get a mini workout in. I need to get a workout in. Well I'm off to bed, goodnight all.
January 21, 2011
160 Days to Go
Okay, I get it. I understand. This may be the cheesiest thing I have ever done, but if it works, then it was worth it. For the past couple of weeks, there was a new show out on MTV. It profiled young people who were overweight. They had 90 days to loose ninety pounds. Although I would absolutely love to go for that, I need to make sure my goals and dreams are realistic. I started thinking about when 90 days were. It was in the middle of NOTHING! All our family birthdays are in the winter. There were no holidays or special celebratioins that came within 90 days.
So an idea came to mind. I knew I had to have a yearly check-up with my doctor. I then set up the date for July 1st. I called the Woman's Clinic and asked for an appointment then. I could tell the woman on the other side of the phone was very confused. "You mean February, not July," she said. "Nope, I want it July," I repeated. Everything worked out, but little did she know, I wanted that date for a reason. After hanging up with her, I got out my little calendar and started counting the days until July 1st. I thought of a reasonal amount of weight I can loose. I came up with fifty. If I can accompish that, great. If I can lose more than that, great. I have to go into this with a positive attitude. Another little cheesy thing I did was create a contract. I basically wrote in there that I will have a positive attitude along with motivation on any weight I lose. I will pick up where I left off, and leave the past in its past. I also created a little word process page where I could print "so many days to go" on it. I cut paper into 160 little 4X5 inch sections. Loaded it into my printer, and let the printer do its job. One hundred and sixty pages later, I was set...for that part anyways.
I had a conversation with my mom one night. I told her how I was tired of trying to loose weight, and never sticking to it. And many of you people who read this that know me, can vouch for that! I told her I also wanted her to loose weight; especially for her health. Surprisingly she went along with it. My approach is to cut calories, watch sodium, and cut down on carbs. Her stradedgy is to eat as much fruit, veggies, and meat she wants. That's fine, but I'm sticking with my approach because I know it works.
So last night we went out to a couple of stores and got some healthy food. We were browsing at this one store, and saw some organic yellow carrots, so we said lets try it. Then we saw some collard greens. So, we will try those as well. I may not know what I got myself into by picking those things up. Ha! But at least I can say I tried them, rather than just saying I do not like them. While shopping, I happened to look into a cart by a nearby shopper. All they had in their cart was junk food. Chips, fried food, soda, and the list goes on and on. I looked into our cart and saw all these veggies and fruits. We bought NOTHING, and I mean NOTHING, that was junk food. Everything was all natural, grown from the ground. It felt good having all that natural food in my cart, rather than all that junk food.
Thus brings me to this blog. Everyday I will write on it, and share with you. Everyday I will get one step closer to my goal. I'm not looking back now, this is it.
So an idea came to mind. I knew I had to have a yearly check-up with my doctor. I then set up the date for July 1st. I called the Woman's Clinic and asked for an appointment then. I could tell the woman on the other side of the phone was very confused. "You mean February, not July," she said. "Nope, I want it July," I repeated. Everything worked out, but little did she know, I wanted that date for a reason. After hanging up with her, I got out my little calendar and started counting the days until July 1st. I thought of a reasonal amount of weight I can loose. I came up with fifty. If I can accompish that, great. If I can lose more than that, great. I have to go into this with a positive attitude. Another little cheesy thing I did was create a contract. I basically wrote in there that I will have a positive attitude along with motivation on any weight I lose. I will pick up where I left off, and leave the past in its past. I also created a little word process page where I could print "so many days to go" on it. I cut paper into 160 little 4X5 inch sections. Loaded it into my printer, and let the printer do its job. One hundred and sixty pages later, I was set...for that part anyways.
I had a conversation with my mom one night. I told her how I was tired of trying to loose weight, and never sticking to it. And many of you people who read this that know me, can vouch for that! I told her I also wanted her to loose weight; especially for her health. Surprisingly she went along with it. My approach is to cut calories, watch sodium, and cut down on carbs. Her stradedgy is to eat as much fruit, veggies, and meat she wants. That's fine, but I'm sticking with my approach because I know it works.
So last night we went out to a couple of stores and got some healthy food. We were browsing at this one store, and saw some organic yellow carrots, so we said lets try it. Then we saw some collard greens. So, we will try those as well. I may not know what I got myself into by picking those things up. Ha! But at least I can say I tried them, rather than just saying I do not like them. While shopping, I happened to look into a cart by a nearby shopper. All they had in their cart was junk food. Chips, fried food, soda, and the list goes on and on. I looked into our cart and saw all these veggies and fruits. We bought NOTHING, and I mean NOTHING, that was junk food. Everything was all natural, grown from the ground. It felt good having all that natural food in my cart, rather than all that junk food.
Thus brings me to this blog. Everyday I will write on it, and share with you. Everyday I will get one step closer to my goal. I'm not looking back now, this is it.
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