62 Days to Go

You know, I could make excuse after excuse why I haven't written on here since March.  I think I could probably come up with a hundred or so.  But the truth is....I haven't been eating or exercising how I should be.  With everything from work to illnesses, I made this excuse in my head that, "Oh, it's okay to have that fast food, just this one time.  Tomorrow you will do better!"  But the more I thought about it, this one time was always the one time.  And the tomorrow that was really suppose to be tomorrow, wasn't really there at all.


I've been blessed to have God place someone in my life that has been through these trials and tribulations.  I think she is the most wonderful, beautiful, amazing woman anyone could know.  I thought she never had her flaws with weight loss, and always hit the gym when she could.  Then one day she admitted she needs to get back on track.. Life is always about getting back on track.


These blogs, especially mine, always sound better when there are butterflies, and flowers, and glitter, and all these wonderful things.  But the truth is, life is never full of those things.  There are bad things that hop along here and there.  So here it is:  I may play the I am stuck at 20 pounds, and I don't know why....or even now, I'm stuck at 23 pounds and don't know why.  WHY?!?!  Why, seriously?  It's because I make those excuses that tomorrow will always come.  When I was little, my biggest pet peeve was when someone made a promise that they'll do something and never do it.  And here I am sitting here, telling myself I'll diet tomorrow, and that tomorrow is never here.  I'm breaking the promise to myself.


We get our work schedule about three weeks in advance.  So I am sitting here wanting to plan it out. I counted down from July 1st, my goal.  OH MY GOSH!!  I started with 150+ days and now I am down to 62 days.  I cannot believe it.  I am still going to try and hit my goal as much as I can.  I have to loose 27 pounds in two months.  I may not reach it, but that's okay.  I will shoot for as much as I can.


I found note cards I had written my workout schedule on.  Every day I had at least 2 hours of exercise on it.  Does that seem extreme?  Yeah, maybe.  But not to me.  I know I can do it.  But I need help from everyone. I need people to be my accountability partner.  I need someone to push me as far as I can go.  I don't have that at home, and it's really hard to keep going.


So, here I go...gonna write down my schedule.  Here goes nothing...!