62 Days to Go

You know, I could make excuse after excuse why I haven't written on here since March.  I think I could probably come up with a hundred or so.  But the truth is....I haven't been eating or exercising how I should be.  With everything from work to illnesses, I made this excuse in my head that, "Oh, it's okay to have that fast food, just this one time.  Tomorrow you will do better!"  But the more I thought about it, this one time was always the one time.  And the tomorrow that was really suppose to be tomorrow, wasn't really there at all.


I've been blessed to have God place someone in my life that has been through these trials and tribulations.  I think she is the most wonderful, beautiful, amazing woman anyone could know.  I thought she never had her flaws with weight loss, and always hit the gym when she could.  Then one day she admitted she needs to get back on track.. Life is always about getting back on track.


These blogs, especially mine, always sound better when there are butterflies, and flowers, and glitter, and all these wonderful things.  But the truth is, life is never full of those things.  There are bad things that hop along here and there.  So here it is:  I may play the I am stuck at 20 pounds, and I don't know why....or even now, I'm stuck at 23 pounds and don't know why.  WHY?!?!  Why, seriously?  It's because I make those excuses that tomorrow will always come.  When I was little, my biggest pet peeve was when someone made a promise that they'll do something and never do it.  And here I am sitting here, telling myself I'll diet tomorrow, and that tomorrow is never here.  I'm breaking the promise to myself.


We get our work schedule about three weeks in advance.  So I am sitting here wanting to plan it out. I counted down from July 1st, my goal.  OH MY GOSH!!  I started with 150+ days and now I am down to 62 days.  I cannot believe it.  I am still going to try and hit my goal as much as I can.  I have to loose 27 pounds in two months.  I may not reach it, but that's okay.  I will shoot for as much as I can.


I found note cards I had written my workout schedule on.  Every day I had at least 2 hours of exercise on it.  Does that seem extreme?  Yeah, maybe.  But not to me.  I know I can do it.  But I need help from everyone. I need people to be my accountability partner.  I need someone to push me as far as I can go.  I don't have that at home, and it's really hard to keep going.


So, here I go...gonna write down my schedule.  Here goes nothing...!

113 Days to Go

I am starting to feel better about myself again.  As much as I hate, hate, hate to say this. I gained a couple weeks ago.  I can come up with excuse after excuse.  But it doesn't matter that I was working 12 hours, or that dad has his surgery, or the fact that I let myself go.  I feel ashamed that it happened, but I cannot deny it.  It happens in and on your journey.  Like I said before in my "contract" you must forgive yourself just as Christ forgives us.  You must move on.

So that is what I who has lost the weight, and kept it off.  I hope one day God will open my eyes and let me see what everyone else sees, espeically Him.

Well, off to bed.  BodyStep in the morning, we will see how sore I am tomorrow!!  :o)
did.

I gained way more than I wanted, let alone, thought I did.  Of course, having the "fat" mind I did, I was like well, so much is due to extra salt, so much is due to the weather, so much is do to this or that.  Seriously? All I am doing is making excuses again.  I rather not say how much I gained or lost of what I gained, but I will tell you that I only have two pounds to go before I'm back at my regular weight a few weeks ago.

To be completely honest, I don't feel like this "awesome" person everyone says I am.  They say I am doing awesome with  my weight loss, or that I am this great instructor.  Really?  Maybe God needs to open my eyes because I just feel like the "old" Jessica I always have been.  But then again, I remember talking with Emily about this.  She sees herself as this regular, God-fearing, plan-jane woman, yet I see her as this awesome person

114 Days to Go

I got my butt out of bed this morning!!  Yay, for me. If you guys know me, you know that I am so not a morning person.

I went to BodyStep.  It was okay...I feel like the moves were too difficult for me to understand. For one move it was called the revolving door.  You stepped over the board and back, a while  turning around in many circles.  I guess I was just too worried about falling.  And towards the end, she had us to this body dip.  She failed to tell the people who only had one step, that we needed more for this one.  Oh well.  I still burned 525 calories in an hour, not too shabby!

I wish I could have went on my walk today. Stupid rain.  Today was pretty much boring, hopefully tomorrow will be alot better  :o)  Thus because it is ZUMBA night!!

115 Days to Go

I got yelled at for not writing this blog anymore.  Not really yelled, but yelled at! lol  I can come up with excuses after excuses of reasons why I didn't write.  I'm tired, I just got off work, I this and I that....excuses, excuses, excuses!!  The real reason was that I was lazy, yes I said it.

Anyways, I haven't been eating the best, therefore, I didn't weigh in.  I know I should. I promise I will....later this week!  :o)

These past couple of days, God has really opened my eyes and showed me how blessed and loved I am.  Sunday night, I was blessed with my certification fees being paid for.  I still cannot believe it happened!  Thanks to all who made this happen:  Sanford and Becky, Chris and Cathi, Dennis and Debby, Candy and Bill, Joyce and Mike. There are not enough words in the world to say how thankful I am for this!!  It felt really weird to be THAT blessed when I am used to being the person who blesses someone else.

For my class tonight, I did a few more (new) songs.  I did one, big, horrible stupid thing! lol I practiced some of the songs in my living room.  But I didn't fully practice the whole song.  So, needless to say, I am VERY SORE!!  I can barely move, I realized I have muscles in areas I didn't know I had them.

But all is good, I think.  :o)

So tired, planning on either gym or walk tomorrow. Night all!



P.S.
My whole caloric burn, if you remember, I upped to 3,200.  Today I burned 4,300.....and 800 in ZUMBA!!  Yay!

119 Days to Go

Wow.  Where to start....


I know I haven't wrote in FOREVER!  I kinda went off my diet when dad has his surgery.  Hospital food, yeah, it not the best. 


This blog will be short, maybe not sweet, but at least short.  I went back on my diet today, so far, not bad.  I forgot I upped my calorie burn to 3200 until I re-read my blog.  Yikes, better get cracking on it.  If the weather holds out, I'm going for my 4.3 mile walk, and then practice new songs for zumba.


Yes, I did tell you it would be a short blog.  :o)

130 Days to Go

I have had a very stressful past couple of days.  The last thing I wanted to do was exercise.  I find myself wanting to turn to exercise if I am mad lately.  That is very strange, but whatever!

Dad is going to be having surgery on Tuesday (prayers are welcomed!!)  and I've been having really bad nightmares.  Thus, me not wanting to go to sleep, I am really warn down and tired.  Today I got on the scale.  I'm down two more pounds. Yay!!  A total of 20 pounds so far.  Not too shabby since January 1st. 

The last thing I wanted to do today was go to Zumba class at the gym.  I REALLY wanted to take a nap.  I knew there was no time for me to take a nap, go to zumba, and go to our fellowship tonight.  I felt really good losing the two pounds, but I knew I had to push myself further.  It has really hit me these past few days that after the 130's, come the 120's which means I have little than four months left.  I don't want to say I'm freaking out, but I'm not calm about it. 

I had only one goal this year, and that was July 1st.  I "re-updated" it.  I get certified for my class on April 16th.  I'm really excited about it.  So, I decided to put in another goal.  I would like to get to a certain weight (which I do not want to mention just yet) But to get there, I need to loose 16 more pounds.  So by April 16th, I should be down 36 pounds.  And by July 1st, I should be down 50 pounds. I'm really excited.  I feel like time is flying by way to fast.

So, I am back at that mind over body.  I KNOW I need to go to the gym.  My mind says, sleep in.  But I upped my calorie burn to 3200 per day. So, my plan is to go to bodystep tomorrow and maybe a little eliptical or treadmill afterwards.  I got to keep going. :o)

132 Days to Go

Plans on going to body attack this morning?  Epic fail!  I set my alarm last night all excited for it, but I forgot to turn it on!  Seriously? Not cool, Jessica, not cool.

Anyways, I decided to do a weigh in.  I got on my WiiFit and saw the bar keep going down, not hitting my BMI where I was last week.  I knew that every point was six pounds.  (Example for those of you who do not understand the Wii:  Say your BMI said it was 24.5 and you weighed in at 23.5, you lost a total of six pounds. I just knew this from the facts it gives off.)  I was really surprised it was that low.  I hit the weight button and I had lost 3.3 pounds.  Finally!! 

When I was on the steriods, I gained 0.7 pounds and then 1.5 pounds.  Last week I lost my 1.5 pounds, so I was only 0.7 pounds from where I was.  I made it in the next set of numbers (tenths)!!  Yay!!  I have lost a total of 18 pounds since the first of the year.  Wow!!

I also just measured myself.  Being a fat girl, you measure EVERYTHING!! I measure my neck, upper and lower arms, chest, wasit, hips, thighs, calfs, and ankles.  Last time I measured and recorded myself was in November 2010.  My biggest losses were my chest 3 inches, and my waist 3.5 inches.  I lost a total of 12.5 inches off of everything.  I was really surprised on losing inches on my lower arms.  Hey, whatever, I will take it!! 

Since the weather is nice, and the water puddles majorly cleared up, I am going to go for a nice walk later.  I cannot wait!!  :o)