113 Days to Go

I am starting to feel better about myself again.  As much as I hate, hate, hate to say this. I gained a couple weeks ago.  I can come up with excuse after excuse.  But it doesn't matter that I was working 12 hours, or that dad has his surgery, or the fact that I let myself go.  I feel ashamed that it happened, but I cannot deny it.  It happens in and on your journey.  Like I said before in my "contract" you must forgive yourself just as Christ forgives us.  You must move on.

So that is what I who has lost the weight, and kept it off.  I hope one day God will open my eyes and let me see what everyone else sees, espeically Him.

Well, off to bed.  BodyStep in the morning, we will see how sore I am tomorrow!!  :o)
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I gained way more than I wanted, let alone, thought I did.  Of course, having the "fat" mind I did, I was like well, so much is due to extra salt, so much is due to the weather, so much is do to this or that.  Seriously? All I am doing is making excuses again.  I rather not say how much I gained or lost of what I gained, but I will tell you that I only have two pounds to go before I'm back at my regular weight a few weeks ago.

To be completely honest, I don't feel like this "awesome" person everyone says I am.  They say I am doing awesome with  my weight loss, or that I am this great instructor.  Really?  Maybe God needs to open my eyes because I just feel like the "old" Jessica I always have been.  But then again, I remember talking with Emily about this.  She sees herself as this regular, God-fearing, plan-jane woman, yet I see her as this awesome person

114 Days to Go

I got my butt out of bed this morning!!  Yay, for me. If you guys know me, you know that I am so not a morning person.

I went to BodyStep.  It was okay...I feel like the moves were too difficult for me to understand. For one move it was called the revolving door.  You stepped over the board and back, a while  turning around in many circles.  I guess I was just too worried about falling.  And towards the end, she had us to this body dip.  She failed to tell the people who only had one step, that we needed more for this one.  Oh well.  I still burned 525 calories in an hour, not too shabby!

I wish I could have went on my walk today. Stupid rain.  Today was pretty much boring, hopefully tomorrow will be alot better  :o)  Thus because it is ZUMBA night!!

115 Days to Go

I got yelled at for not writing this blog anymore.  Not really yelled, but yelled at! lol  I can come up with excuses after excuses of reasons why I didn't write.  I'm tired, I just got off work, I this and I that....excuses, excuses, excuses!!  The real reason was that I was lazy, yes I said it.

Anyways, I haven't been eating the best, therefore, I didn't weigh in.  I know I should. I promise I will....later this week!  :o)

These past couple of days, God has really opened my eyes and showed me how blessed and loved I am.  Sunday night, I was blessed with my certification fees being paid for.  I still cannot believe it happened!  Thanks to all who made this happen:  Sanford and Becky, Chris and Cathi, Dennis and Debby, Candy and Bill, Joyce and Mike. There are not enough words in the world to say how thankful I am for this!!  It felt really weird to be THAT blessed when I am used to being the person who blesses someone else.

For my class tonight, I did a few more (new) songs.  I did one, big, horrible stupid thing! lol I practiced some of the songs in my living room.  But I didn't fully practice the whole song.  So, needless to say, I am VERY SORE!!  I can barely move, I realized I have muscles in areas I didn't know I had them.

But all is good, I think.  :o)

So tired, planning on either gym or walk tomorrow. Night all!



P.S.
My whole caloric burn, if you remember, I upped to 3,200.  Today I burned 4,300.....and 800 in ZUMBA!!  Yay!

119 Days to Go

Wow.  Where to start....


I know I haven't wrote in FOREVER!  I kinda went off my diet when dad has his surgery.  Hospital food, yeah, it not the best. 


This blog will be short, maybe not sweet, but at least short.  I went back on my diet today, so far, not bad.  I forgot I upped my calorie burn to 3200 until I re-read my blog.  Yikes, better get cracking on it.  If the weather holds out, I'm going for my 4.3 mile walk, and then practice new songs for zumba.


Yes, I did tell you it would be a short blog.  :o)